If I love, I love deeply From Russia be back and still far from being reached. Although I have the impressions of the country, the culture and the friendly cooperation processed and preserved for eternity, and internalized but my mind still buzzing in Nirvana. This was a very rich experience and formative Time. Many impressions were similar to that in Belarus. The strong contrast, was that it often seemed like a diplomat and had more meetings are definitely over. However, I had never yet so fight with the consequences, thoughts Technically, as this time. I would also like to not go into detail, but to describe to my dilemma I do not need that. My mood changes from euphoria to deep feelings of confusion and spring just the insight that the parties can not play. My goodness I am verschrotet grade and I will spite of this insight I now take a further time of the attempted escape, and then again tomorrow morning to wake up to realize that I need to shoot me one way or another in the long run in's own knee. Basically it is a question whether I follow my feelings and put me back on hold. For in the last week the following has happened to me. A value-lady has managed to thaw the frozen lump name heart. The bitter part is that this has done for over a year and no one in particular rarely so simple and so clear. I do not know if I can persuade me, or whether that is the simple fact, but it worked easily.
first met, spoken by one night, felt comfortable together, made friends, rest of the week a friendly well understood. It was nothing, it seemed so far everything clear. It should amount to a good friendship. So at least I acted and what else should not work. Then I got back to Bremen and sat me what was missing during the week was given. But I am almost certain that more should not be. Now I had already had at least a few days to think and believe at least that I can get something out slowly the heated emotions. Again, I can also imagine that no matter what I'm going, I'll shoot again in the foot. However, I should finally realize that it is good to try to love again, everything else could not go on for another year so at some point I would otherwise be determined completely numb and still had any affection felt to be annoying. Would probably still walked with insignificant Zuneigungsbekennungen by repeatedly relatively unknown acquaintances through life. As far as I am with my thinking progressed, however, not yet. What can I keep this stage, however, to the best that I always turn the wheel if I totally like the last 4 days, there are other essential things to be aware of. For example, to know precisely where they belong.
I believe that everyone has to be at certain times to a certain place, for his life and the lives of others to guide them in the right direction. I ended up doing yesterday can find. For me, fits precisely nothing else but to live in Bremen, in the quarter and with the people in the store. Such discoveries one makes when one then tries to escape from other things. Where you will be caught before the flight, where you do not even have to flee, should remain one. And there I will remain first and make my life with the possibilities of more. At least I know I at all with people at this particular location nothing can go wrong.
